i hate my life

LaTELY, mY LIFE HAS BEEN A REAL MESS ! THINGS ARENT GOING AS WELL AS THEY SHOULD BE, I'VE STARTED LOSING FRENS, FULL OF MISUNDERSTANDINGS AND UNREASONABLY SCOLDED BY MY PARENTS .. IT SUX ISN'T IT ?                                      THERE'S TIS FREN OF MINE .. IM SUPER CLOSED TO HER .. AND THERE'S TIS BITCH WHICH IS OUR FREN , SUDDENLY CAME INTO OUR STORYLINE.. I DONT NOE WATS SO GOOD ABT HER TAT AMALINA POSTED AT HER WALL WITH ALL THE HEART SHAPES AND I LOVE YOU (S) .. OBVIOUSLY , I WAS ANGRY. IM NOT JELES.. IM ANGRY CUZ I CANT BEAR SEEING MY DEAR FREN TALKING TO A SLUT .. -.-  .. AND THERE IT GOES WE STARTED A SMALL FIGHT ..  AND WE'RE OK.. BUT NOW , ITS A BIG ONE.. FULL OF MISUNDERSTANDINGS. I THOUGHT AMALINA IS GETTING VERY CLOSE TO TAT BITCH.. THERE'S THESE STATUS TAT AMALINA HAD POSTED. SO I ASKED 'SAPE?' AND SHE SAID 'ADER UH' .. THEN WHEN TAT BITCH ASKED WHO , AMALINA TOLD HER TAT SHE WILL TELL HER TMR.. AND TAT WAS THE PART WHEN I GOT REALLY ANGRY, CUZ I TOT AMALINA IS HIDING FROM IT AND SHE ONLY SHARE IT TO SABABI , TAT BITCH . THEN FAEZAH CALLED ME, SHE XPLAINED EVERYTHING FROM A-Z FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND. AND I GOT IT .. THEN AMALINA POST AT MY WALL AND ACUSE ME SAYING 'NEH NEH NEH , AMALINA MEREPEK' .. URGH ! BEFORE TAT I DROPPED SOMETHING AND I DIDNT BOTHER TO PICK IT UP CUZ I WAS TOO LAZY . SO I SAT DOWN , CONCENTRATING ON MY STUDIES AND OFF COZ MY FACE WILL BE SERIOUS. THEN SUDDENLY MY MUM CAME IN AND SCOLD ABT TAT THING ON THE FLOOR. I IGNORE HER CUZ I WAS CONCENTRATING , AND SHE ASK 'APE YANG BUAT KAO TK SENANG ?! ASAL KAO MUKE MASAM JER. JANGAN SAMPAI KAO KENE LEMPANG DARI MAMA EH' .. I WAS FUCKING FURIOUS !! FUCK ! NOTHING MAKES ME UNEASY , I WAS CONCENTRATING WITH MY FUCKING WORK AND THERE SHE GOES ACUSSING ME .. CIBAI ! URGH ! THEN WADDHYA EXPECT ?? SMILING AND LAUGHING WHILE CONCENTRATING WITH MY WORK AH ?! EH , PPL TAT IS NOT NORMAL WOULD DO TAT .. SEE LAH , I WANT TO STUDY WITH MY SERIOUS FACE IS WRONG . IM ACUSE OF NOT BEING HAPPY .. HELLO ! DONT YOU UNDERSTAND THE STAGES WHEN GOING THROUGH MENSES ?!!? FUCK U !

We're fine already But ...

She've decided to change . She dun wan to be the devilish/joker animore :((
hhaaiish, so sadded. Confirm 100% im gonna miss the old Amalina. Its hard for me to say this .. but.. I STILL LOVE HER MORE THAN A FREN.

Yesterday i saw her status, tat she decided not to live in this Earth. At first, i was like WTF ??!!!! She said tat she was too stressed abt. But why wan to runaway from stress by Dying siia ?!

Then now is my dear fren Diyanah Shortkid. She've found out tat i've cut my hand. Aiseyyman , gawat ni ... Yes, i've broked our promise . I understand alot if she's mad at me.. =/ .. Awesome , i've created a new problem .. AGAIN ...

Amalina dear ... If u're reading tis, pls noe tat i still love and care for u alot :)) .. I noe i've misunderstand everything , i dunno y im so sensitive abt .. so ... [SORRY]

Diyanah Dear .. If u're also reading tis , up to u if u wan to forgive me or cuz i've break my promise. I totally understand it.. I swear, i will never do anything crazier than tis. So far, the crazy thing i've done is only wrist cutting. But i'll try not to do it again....

I dun giv a damn on her

I regret posting things about her recently.. She's very stubborn. Imagine if ur own bestfriend injects herself, as in (taking drugs) .. Im sure u'll get mad , right ?? When i've found out for the first time, i was damn angry abt it.. A few days later, she posted on her status tat she wanted to inject herself again.. So i comment on her status, 'Kalo kao buat lagi , jgn harap aku nk lyn kao'

At nite, i received a text from her. She said tat she has already injected herself and she told me not to talk to her .. since she took it for granted abt wad i comment earlier on.. I was fucking furious. And i was like..

"FINE !! Dun ever crawl back to me again when u needed help or regret ur descicions !"

I couldnt reply her cuz my pp8 low. The next morning, i saw her status " Tknk bobual atau layan sudah -.- .." .. Im not mad, i post at my status

"Fine arh ! Aku pon tk ingin nk lyn org cam kao.. Dari re-action kao da nmpk sah kao tk suke aku as a fren. Dah.. tk yah nk pretend2 lagi. Mak kao lahir kan kao lawa2, kao gi rosak kan hidop kao.. pandai kan.. slame aku sia2 jer larh tlg kao ! -.- FML"

Juz now , outside Greenridge Primary , i was waiting for something.. And i heard laughters at the court. So i turned around and i saw her face behind the bushes. She was with her friends. So i walk away , hoping tat she will not see me. Then i got fed-up of waiting i juz went home. I saw her loitering wth her frens under my blok. So , i juz walk across them. Good thing they didnt see.

So, Juz now .. I log in my Facebook account. At my news feed, I saw A bitch name SABabi (sabrina) post this ..

"Kao ingat kaw katerh kaw nk tinggal kn senior aku kesah ? Dier tk kesah lah seyh .! Dier dah delete kaw dary contacts dier depan materh akuh sendiri !"

And i was like , "So ? Ade aku kesah ?? Aku tk kan mati per?!" .. Haiishh, tat bitch always talk bullshit one larhh.. Wadever she talks doesnt make any sense. -.-

I swear, im super angry rite now.. Haiishh, -.-

Feelings

Okay , there's this guy added me on Facebook. So i accept his fren request cuz he's a Fajarian aswell and i've seen him in skool but we didnt talk . So , one day .. he pop-out and chat with me. He was VERY friendly . He's different from other guys. Seriously :))

And we chat , we introduced ourselves. And then we got each other's number. [NOTE:WE ARE FRENS] .. And we text and text . Though his jokes we're all .. A BIT lame , but i noe he really tried his best to make a fren laugh :) cuz there was once he told me "Do u think i'm funny? cuz last time , my frens told me tat im not" So , of coz i dun wanna tell him abt his jokes

So , yesterday we text . Frm afternoon until 1A.M .. Awesome ! haha .. He said tat he got scouts hiking , but i wonder why he took his time texting with me. And guess wad , he likes AVENGED SEVENFOLD aswell ! weeeee~! And Honest to say , he's kinda cute aswell. He's good and obedient boy. But sadly, he cant go out cuz his parents didnt allow him. And also ask me "Am i kental , juz becuz i cant go out?" I said NO .. I've been through that matter before. He ask me tat kind of question cuz , his frens teased him KENTAL juz bcuz he cant go out wth his frens. So , i am his listening ears, I told him tat he's not kental . At least he's doing the right thing, listening to his parents. He is not his fren's dog tat he must listen to what they say to make him feel .. cool .. :)

Day by Day , My feelings for him are increasing Jus a bit .. Well , i tried not to have a full crush on him , cuz of some particular reasons. He said , next time if got "Literature Through Drama Lesson" he wan to treat me and we eat together at the canteen. So i was kinda worried , Im not xpecting tat we're together ; alone eating ... So , i was expecting tat his frens will be there..

Yea, tats abt all . I only hav small feelings for him.. ONLY SMALL. *Giggles* .. okey , i dun wanna talk more abt him cuz i dun wan ppl to think tat Im very bitchy , always talking abt boys.. Well , obviously tis is a blog. So , i SHARE it. NOT showing off :)

Its hard to have Frenz like her

She's the only one tat i've never seen such behaviour. Yea , her true colours are very DEVILISH .. Imnot gonna tell all her "devilish" behaviour ..

*PSSST!* She's also a sweet person ! She's kind actually .. always care for her frenz .. My first impression of her was like .. "Woahh!' ... Last time , i dunno Amalina is a boy or a girl. Cuz , the she speaks and the way she walk was like a boy . Her voice is cute .. All her reactions was like a boy-ish type ..

Ya'noe , most of girls' jokes are lame and couldnt make boys laugh . But tis girl .. NUR AMALINA .. Is like , one of my best jokers ! She can make me laugh my ass off ! And can make boys laugh as well .. awesome rite ?

Haah ! She's involved in alot of fight .. But seriously , She's too awesome. i cant describe the awesomeness. hehe ... My life brightens up bcuz of her . I learned alot frm her reactions .. She's cool :) ..

I wanna share more but i hav to go alrdy .. I LOVE U AMALINA !

-If u're reading it . i wan u to noe tat im doing tis sincerely.Not juz a disply-

morning !

Heyy babeZ ..

Again i woke up early . but yesterday its earlier .. my goodness im seriously suffering frm my muscle cramps >.< .. Its been 3 days. Haiisshh ...

Juz so u noe .. In a few days , My birthday is coming right up ! Me excited .. i hope there will be a fun birthday bash .. and lots and lots of ppreesseenntss ..

Alrite , i didnt mean to brag abt it .. But when im excited .. I am like tis .. But im not really over-reacting like some other gurls though .. Puhhleeassee !

Too bad my crush doesnt noe me :(
I think , he like other girl . cuz tat im walking with Hana , then he saw me ... he turn around .. I think he did it on purpose .. an excuse looking at his class by turning around ..

Well , nvm .. Juz accept the facts . I dun xpect him to have a crush on me back .. ! Yea , in my skool there are loads of damn pretty girls with good figure ....

Talking abt him , i dreamt of him juz now .. Well , not really .. juz a glance at him and then *POOF* ! He disappeared ..
Welcome To My World -.-

Wake up Call

I dunno why i woke up very early in the morning at 6.00AM . Usually i woke up at 8 or 10++ .. Nvm

Mayb its bcuz im having my period and its uncomfortable .

Seriously , i dunno wad to type animore . Its only Saturday . Not much of a story unless something happens .

Tata ~!