Dear bloggie,
Sorry i didnt update u for a quite a long time. Kinda bz lately or mayb im juz too lazy to update blog..hehe.. Hope other bloggers are doing fine aswell..Aniwae,, Guess wat...?? IM SINGLE [!]

I dun wanna tell the story here...cuz i've already told too much ppl..As, i dun wanna...Embarassed him by his own mistakes he has done to me. But honest to say, I still LIKE him...But mayb now, no longer...If i still like him, i shuld juz take him as my crush..Simple..But as usual, we didnt talk to each other..I dunno for wad reason..Is either we still shy, or we dun wanna think abt it again...Duhh!! we hav nothing in between us animore...k nvm...its juz fine...

I guess, i wont type much here...If im so very free, i'll type long long long...hehe....alrite..i hav to go...chia0!!

I dream that love would never die

Hey bloggie!
Ms Kaulitz here..im not gonna type much here. Guess wat i dreamt juz now..? Yes, i dreamt of my dear boyfie..Its been weeks since i havent text wth him....I have to bear wth it, I cant see him for a week cuz of holiday..juz by seeing his pic in my fone it wasnt enuf... *sighs*..

I dream of him...i dream tat..i was sitting at one corner cuz im tired. He sat beside me real close cuz he's tired aswell but he's not facing the same direction as i am..

I got completely exhausted..I laid my head on his shoulder to get some comfort..He noticed it..he laid his head over mine..I almost fell asleep. Then he put his arms around me..I held his hand...And he hold my hand very tight....I wuld never ever ever forget tat part in my whole entire life...

After some time....he vanished..juz lyke tat...He left me alone in the cold night...I started crying......

Then i woke up...Hoping tat it was juz a dream...I lay back down...and smile..... I wish tat sweet part is a reality.....

I love you so much.... <3
Promise that you'll never leave me.....

Im Sorry......

I hav been SO stupid...

Im lost now....

I dunno where to go...

Pls, Help me guide my way,....

...My Angels.....

U're not sweet when u're upset...

I noe its hard to forget....

But its the past....

There's nothin' i can do to erase...

Please.....

Im sorry...............

Do always smile without me....Im gone....So i Lay here wth u; to the final goodbye... <3

My Angels

My dear AngelZ, I miss our moments together in the past....I still remember our Promise tat we will never break our fwenship....It doesnt matter if u're still mad at me...Its true wad Bella says,, I make descicions too fast.. U are my true frenz, U've lead my to the right path everytime...Without u im lost,,, Im a mega jerk in tis Earth... Thank God tat i've found u...But wad hav i done!? I ruined everything....And i noe its all my fault....If u didnt lyke my attitude,My appearance...tats juz fine...juz fine....

I realized tat i've been very stubborn lately...It doesnt matter wad it takes , until im wth u,...I cried for u all...Cuz i luv our fwenship more than aniting else..

I'd never deleted our pics though some of it is not nice....

Bella: You've been so loving&caring towards ur bestfwenz...i noe,, im juz too much...Ppl wont lyke tat... whatever u said is always true...Once again, Im sorry for causing all tis trouble,for hurting ur feelings...

Naz: You've been so patient towards me although i've been asking too much frm u...U didnt done aniting wrong..u are my one & only true fwenz...same as the others...I dunno wat thoughts u hav behind me...But juz pretend nothing happened....Im sorry....

Sabrina: U're fun & loving person....i'll never 4get the memories we've shared together....Lyke i said i dunno wat thoughts u hav behind me when im asking too much frm u...I get it now...I've been kinda demanding towards u galz lately...But wad hav i done tat i made u all hate me ? ='(

Dear bloggie,
i've been very depressed since the past few days...Cuz...of...fwenship problem...between, me,NaZ,Bella &Sabrina Redzuan...k let me tell u the whole story..Eversince i pierce, Bella started calling m e "Minah"..At first i tot she was joking..So let it be...Day by day...She call me minah again..Tis time i had a little patient in me...so i juz kept quiet, pretend tat nothing had happened. Then Naz ask "Who agree tat Sha is A mina?".Sab,Naz&Bella raise up their hands. Alrite tis time i'd already feel kinda upset..But i wont show it..Juz hide it in myself..

So i got home...thinking of something..Off course i still feel kinda upset though. Some of my gals noe how much I trully Hate MINAHS or even to become one...Does piercings even show an appearance of minah..Tat doesnt matter a little though...After some days, i dunno why i feel kinda left out...Its so confusing! My gals rarely talk to me..So i tot they dun like me when i pierced.. So in my mind.. Let them find a person tat is much much better than me, who doesnt pierce, whose appearance is not as untidy as me..And replace me...

Then i started crying..Why i pierce at the first place..Are my fwenz joking when they're calling me tat? But, the look on their faces are kinda serious...Then my herat told me tat i shuld do something..Tell them....But wat!? Im totally blank..I've been crying my eyes out! ... So took action. I Text them.. telling "I wont b going recess wth u all animore..bb" ...Tears keep rolling down my cheek... First i receive a reply frm Naz... she ask why...But i didnt reply back.. I cant...Then she text me again.. She said.."Wats wrong wth u!? eversince u pierced u've changed"....
So i told her tat the holes on my ear hav closed....Then we hav a small argue thru msg...As i was texting her,, i kept crying non-stop....

So i called nina...i told her wad happened....As we talk, im still crying..A small sob...After some time, my mum called me,, so i came to her...knew 'bout my fwenship prob..She noticed tat i've been crying juz becuz of fwenships....She adviced me,, Its better if i bother a lot 'bout myself than others....Is tat even true?? They are my bestfwenz....How can i juz let them go lyke tat!? ..Mother's words are always true...but if i follow her,, wat sort of fren i am!? i didnt even care 'bout them when i still call them as bestfrenz?? ..I got stubborn....i still dun wana follow her....I've been crying alot lately...Then i on9 fb...post some things ;bout my feelings...Sabrina sent me an email, she posted something on my wall....*sighs*,... I didnt expect tat they wuld bother....Then Naz on9 aswell..She told to chill...she oso tell me tat i've oso hurt her feelings but she juz let it go...Then i feel much better...Me & Naz are already frenz...Sabrina,, i dunno yet...Bella, not sure..

Then today, Bella commented on one of my status. She seems mad O.o ... Then i told her tat i already forget 'bout everything & let it go.....She replied my comment...Wow! She's still mad..... CHEEBYE WAT HAV I DONE!!!!!??? *blahx3* I told her tat i dun wan to look for a fight....And i apologised first....Then bella apologised aswell...we're frenz back again.....i hope so.....

Hey bloggie & bloggers,
Juz now get back home with 60% OF STRESS and 40% of happiness. let me tell why izit stress though its after PSLE.

Juz now morning, suddenly see Mr Tan in a bad mood. At first everything turns out fine. Then Mr Tan told the p5 & p4 to move out of the hall quickly and the p6 stayed. in my mind "hhhmmm, there must be something.." ...The first thing, Mr Tan told ALL the p6 to surrender our HANDPHONES. Me, Rusziana & Hui En hesitate to surrender. Probably most of the pupils in my class hesitate. Then Hafyan stand up to admit. then followed by others. Everyone was shocked to see tat lots of pupils frm 6-kindness brought handphones. Mrs Lee & Mr Tan did a spot check on every p6 classes. Even the smart classes. I quickly clip my fringe. Mrs Lee told me to sit but then she saw my ankle socks..Aiyo! spoil babe.. Then kena stand in front joining wth the rest who kena offence aswell.
Mr Tan dun allow us to bring tat camera bag to skool. And i was lyke.." Sial larh! Wat Fuck he talking??" At least we'd bring bag wat instead of coming to skool empty-handed... Kanina Cheebye!
He said tat it looks lyke the camera bag cant fit in text books.. SO!? Eh, PSLE finish babe! wat for nid to study again.. Even though if we bring our skool bags still cannot fit in drawing block sia... Eh, i've brought a kamus dewan tat Mega thick book together wth my thick pencil case still can fit in lehh...in perfect shape some more...Haiyo!Bolancio!
Dun wan tolk 'bout tat again aa....hati saket aa...
Then. the happiness part is... we got back our phones...hahaha!!

Hey bloggie!
Great news for every p6..PSLE is over! No more stress..yeah!... But dun clap hands first,folks...must w8 till 24 nov..then we'll who will be crying...happy tears?or sad?
Haiyo! i juz made myself scared becuz of tat line. heheh...Silly me...so now, mummy allow me to use laptop.Oh yeah! tis is freakin awesome!
Something awfully crazy thing happened juz now at skool. my fwen told me ;bout it. The science paper ended at 10AM. then as cher'cher collecting the booklets, i heard students screaming at the top of their lungs..Then nabillah told me something. She said tat, at time when the science exam has finished,, IRFAN & other boys pull down their uniform shorts. Off course they wear boxer mah! then irfan tried to open up his shirt...Haiyo!! Uncencored man! <Haish..we'd really went NUTS! LOL! so,, tomorrow im going BPP wth faezah&Nazreenah.
Yeah! juz as i planned. Hopefully my mum wont be at home 2morrow... Im going for piercing aswell...ehhe!
so,, off i go then! Luv ya!

Hey bloggie...
hhhmm...feeling mega stress rite now these days....*yawn*..i juz woke up..then go str8 to laptop and turn on...yea, smelly me! >.<
Aniwaes,, P6(s)..How's ur PSLE ? i hope its fine..yea, maths suffered alot! when i tried to think ULTRA-HARD.. mY brain almost burst...then i juz tikam tikam...*sighs*... I hope I can do it...hav to believe.. So our last subject, will be science..hhhmmm.......
Sorry, i guess i wont be typing a very long story..... Actually i hav some things to share..but, mayb later kays?
So off i go then....